This is your life..are you who you wanna be?

You know over the last year and a half I really got a glimpse of what it was like not to have my Heavenly Father apart of my life...I found myself caught up in temporary happiness...and some how always left to wanting more and it was always the feeling I was left with that it was never enough. It was so easy to buy into that others around me knew what was best for me...and some how being caught in the midst of it alll I found my self pushing out the one's who loved me most for selfish desires that brought no satisfaction cept a title in which the church accepted in as a rebel...I don't know everything and I don't wanna know it alllll. But what I do know is that I'm a daughter of God...and I will stand as a witness in his name...that thru and by him I'm forgiven and will be made brand new. That frowns will become smiles. Saddness will become happiness and thru the atonement...old things can be made brand new and whole once again. If I've learned anything it is to learn to accept that I have a potential. .a future and its up to me how far I'm willing to take that :)

Making a better future for yourself!

If you are so focused on tryin to give your child a better future then what you were given, you are going to miss the whole point why you even went through in your past! Sometimes whose to say what you had to go through is exactly what someone wishes that they could go through..they may be able to handle it, they may handle it different then you..But if you are going to live to make your future better then your past. Then why are you even living? Where are you even growing? You arent gonna even progress where you are suppose to be headed..if your so caught up in your past...
I am so sorry that you are goin through things in your life, that you wish you could of had differently, but its not worth it! Love the people who are seeking for it! Sometimes the best love to give someone is just paying attention to them and taking time JUST to listen, when everyone around you just wants to talk you out of it! Sometimes the best way to love someone, is giving our own life experiences. Whose to say what you once FELT, is exactly what someone is already FEELING! You have that control in you, to make that change...it is just up to you to make that happen.

Time..

Change? What is it really? Is it something that really does stay for a long time? Is it something that really makes a difference in who we are? This word has been on my mind quite a bit lately and I cant seem to get it off my mind...there are times I feel like everyone around me, has it in them to change..but then the thought comes across my mind, what if that is just part of their personality? What really defines change? What really makes you a different person? Maybe the experiences we go through? Maybe even just the things we go through? Hmmm...I really dont know, cause what if the experience comes back around again and we fall back into the same thing we were doing before? I..just I dont know, there are times when I realistically think about things and there is just no way that someone could make a difference. There really is no way that someone could not be who they are and change into a whole new person? What are peoples thoughts when it comes to this?

Suicide!

SO tonight many thoughts run through my mind of the things that I have been going through in my life, to watch people go through everything that they have..YOu know, by all means I am not telling you that this life is easy. I am not telling you that we are going to have answers handed to us and things are going to work out in our favor everytime..But do you honestly think that suicide is the answer? Going into such a DEEP part of who you are? Its dark there..its scary, it may even hurt, and it may even feel as though, nobody could ever know... Do you really think that taking yourself out of this life, is going to make things better in the next? You are going to have more questions asked and judgements against you. Damnit! Pull yourself out of what you are goin thru, life is ALL what you make of it! It doesnt have to be SO hard! You may not be able to control every situation, you are handed. Let alone you may not be able to even fix everything..you may not be able to understand everything as well! But you have a COMPLETE understanding of YOU! thats the only person who really knows who you TRULY are...sooo grab it with both hands and take it where you are hoping to go, where you dream to be and LIVE today and realize the only thing that is TRULY yours...is YOUR attitude!