“Breath of Heaven”
Its that time of year again, and some of us are spending it as Newleyweds, brand new parents, and some of us are just enjoying Christmas with our family…some of us have snow on the ground and some of us get the chance to spend it in short sleeve shirts and have to cover the ground with fake snow ;) but what we all know something about this year is that it brings a feeling to each one of us that have opened our hearts to bring peace, joy and a simple assurance that the Son Of God is born this time of year and he is the reason for the season. Some of us may believe in Santa this year and some of us are seeking to find the true meaning of Christmas.
I will have you know, this past year I have found every reason to believe in this time of year, it is the only reason that I am still going. Because I am ever so aware that because the Son of God came to the earth to live an example for you and me, I have found miracles that came together through many sleepless nights, restless days, and constant thoughts. I am sure we each are aware of such a feeling like that.
God has never put us through more then we can handle, but what we also don’t hear after that is that he is walking by our side as we go through losing a loved one to death, divorce or a choice for them to walk out. Such a feeling can come over us that we just don’t understand, questions arise, doubts come over us and hurt begins to set in..some of us set back and ask “why me” some of us ask “what can we learn” and well then there are some of us that will do anything that they can to just let life pass us by without ever learning what the lesson possibly could be.
God has never put us through more then we can handle, but what we also don’t hear after that is that he is walking by our side as we go through losing a loved one to death, divorce or a choice for them to walk out. Such a feeling can come over us that we just don’t understand, questions arise, doubts come over us and hurt begins to set in..some of us set back and ask “why me” some of us ask “what can we learn” and well then there are some of us that will do anything that they can to just let life pass us by without ever learning what the lesson possibly could be.
We each are put through the hardest trials, some that test us at our limits and we think what possibly could we have done to deserve such a thing…but that wasn’t the case when you had to go through it...someone, somewhere knew you fought in as you were in heaven with him and someone, somewhere knew that it was possible…that is simply why the word itself, “impossible says Im Possible”
I am sorry that you have had quite the year, but what I can tell you is that I am assured you are a new person today because of it!
This past year I have had the opportunity to go through school, 1600 hours later 2 tests, I am an official cosmetologist in the state of Arizona! Some of you will see that as an accomplishment being only 20 and having a career. Some will look at it as, that was easy couldn’t of been that hard. Well for me, it was the best thing that I ever had to go through. I went through school, with a full support system from my loving family, best friend and instructors that believed in me. Paying for everything myself, starting to date someone serious, end up marrying him and divorcing him, many new things I had to learn, knowledge that didn’t always make sense and having it all to sink in so it could be applied in the world. I was building a cliental that I could go out into the world and be made known. As I was building life long friendships with women, that were going through the exact same thing I was…and I lost myself in the whole mist of it all, to only find that I am proud of who I am today having to sacrifice family time, events and time. I am a women who now looks at what is really important and what is not. I appreciate family and every moment I get with them, I am a woman who loves to overcome fear and face it at whatever cost it may be. I am the woman who decides every single day that I want a better life for myself, because I DESERVE IT! Most of all, I have learned that I am the women, at the end of every day knowing that I did my best, I tried my hardest and I remember that everything is going to always be okay in the end. It just takes time, long suffering and a loving savior to always comfort you when you are down..
Remember this time of year, that yes it may seem as though everything happens all at once and sometimes life hurts the most when you are feeling the most vulnerable but sometimes it is the one time we will and can learn the most.
Hang in there!
Merry Christmas!
Happy Holidays! :)
